I will give up everything just to be happy again. I put on a fake smile hoping it will numb the pain. What it actually does feels like hiding my tears in the rain. The thought of deceiving everyone except me drives me insane. I know you don't love me but my heart doesn't understand that. It still has feelings for someone who thinks I'm substandard. This rejection is so intense that not everyone can withstand that. I may move on after mourning my feelings for you I once had. Don't leave me hanging with a thousand words unspoken. Every passing day is a nightmare I need to be awaken. There's too much on my mind and I'm barely coping. I can't fake happiness in a crowd it's obvious I'm moping. I love myself already, I just need to be cared for. Knowing you're less concerned hurts me to the core. I'm persistent yet if I fail, I'm walking out the door. Because I'm broken by this love story gone sour.