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One-sided Love When our paths crossed, I thought we were meant to be forever To some extent, I day-dreamed about us saying our vows on the altar Because I was attracted to your personality and dazzling eyes Thought it was love but it was lust in disguise As time went on, it seemed like I was trying too hard Wanting to be in a relationship, your future kids calling me Dad I told you about my feelings for you hoping it will be mutual But you kept replying with the “LOL” text. As usual There I was, both a loser and the chairman of your friend-zone Awaiting a text from you, I stayed glued to my phone I’m broken but you never seemed to care to even notice My friends say you don’t love me, but I don’t want to know this But maybe they’re right because you never admitted loving me back You always replied with silence like your words would break my heart There was no crime in telling me you were seeing someone else Perhaps, I could have moved on or decided to stay by mys

Every night as I lay in my bed I fall into a river of thoughts flowing in my head I ponder over most of them Some thoughts becomes a problem And without considerations I settle on harsh decisions I once decided; That never again will I love Because I wasn't good at that stuff To always avoid the only isolated lad; Evans Because of what I heard about him Whereas he's just a victim of circumstance Perhaps a discriminated human being That I'll judge people based on looks Forgetting that none created themselves Oh! what I bad path that I took As if for a day, I can be someone else That after my misunderstanding with Taofeek The conversation between us will end But I just heard he died last week Meaning we can't settle our dispute again After all, there's one thing I understand Laziness and procrastination were my bedfellows So I kept rescheduling my plans Because of my belief in a thousand tomorrows These were decisions from a poisoned

A thousand words won't bring you back I know because I've tried Neither will a thousand tears I know because I've cried We were two love birds but you flew away You were the brightest star in my nights but you didn't shine today I was your Romeo  and you my Juliet But I didn't die yet you left You were my beauty and I, your beast Now I'm a lone wolf and it's you I miss You brought me sunshine when I only saw rain You brought me laughter when I only felt pain You were my sun, You used to make my life bright But now you are gone, my days turns nights Every morning when I wake up and you're not beside me I feel like Jesus and you're the Peter that denied me After I fell in love I failed in love I'm glad you are doing fine Yet sad, You're no longer mine We said Goodbye but I want you to know Goodbye is Goodbye but not forever though.

In 2015, I was in your DM With so many messages, hoping you’ll see them With a great personality, hoping we could be friends Hoping you’ll be aware of my existence In 2016, I was at your heart Hoping you’ll open for me, hoping I’ll be part Of your symphony and your thought Hoping you’ll have fond feelings for me a lot Despite the fact that you’re a snot And so you did, I was overwrought In 2017, We were lovers of the year Never saw each other cry or shed a tear Because seeing each other down was our greatest fear But at a point, we were no longer in love I knew a third party was involved 14th February 2018, I was at your door Knocking vehemently, watching you ignore I looked smart and wore fragrance Full of ambition and importance But what was the essence Of dressing to this extent? “Maybe you went on a date with him” Says a voice from within Or maybe you locked up yourself, reading! I know you woke up to withered roses by your doorstep They were still